This was an awesome day

I pulled into the church parking lot this morning whispering a prayer. "Lord, just get me through today." For some reason, I had a bad vibe about even going to church.

O, Ye of little faith.

I can't remember when I've enjoyed a Sunday more than I did today. Right from the start things were light-hearted, fun, Spirit-filled, and very, very relevant.

Sunday school was great even though I can't pinpoint any special reason. Our lesson was about the paralytic who was lowered through the roof to see Jesus. That truly was an act of great faith but I was struck by the thought of seeing the man as he walked out. Mark 2:12 says that he went out and everyone was amazed and glorified God. But I wonder how he went out. Did he jump up and run out, turning back flips and triple axels, whooping and hollering and giving high-fives to the onlookers? Or was he so humbled by Jesus's grace and mercy that he simply arose and walked out the door, praising God in his heart in silent awe of the power and majesty of the Son of God?

I guess we'll never know. But I'm not sure it matters either way, as long as God gets the glory. As long as God's blessings don't get turned into attention-getters.

Dr. Golden was in the zone this morning. That was a great message about the invalid being healed at the pool at Bethesda. I think if I had been that guy (John 5:1-15), when Jesus asked if I wanted to be healed I would have said, "YES! Yes, yes, yes." No explanation, no sob story, just please heal me before You change Your mind. I guess I would be afraid that I would change His mind for Him.

But the question today was, "Why didn't Jesus just heal everyone there? Why only the one man?"

I have to say that Jesus did heal everyone. His sacrifice covered everyone from then until now and beyond. But this man chose to accept the healing. He said, "I can't get healed without You. You'll have to do it otherwise I will never be healed."

It all comes down to choice again. We have to choose salvation, to accept Jesus, to repent and surrender to Him. We have to choose to die to ourselves daily and walk with Him. We must choose to live and love as He wants us to. We must choose to stay near to Him through our disciplines and not let the world drag us away. We have to choose to remain set apart from the world and let them persecute and hate us for His glory. The power is there, we have to choose it.

Okay, I'm almost done. Juli did an amazing job singing Mighty to Save this morning. She has never sounded better and it set the tone for the rest of the service. I just realized that it sounds like I'm giving a play-by-play of church today. Oh well.

Finally, the point of the sermon that really hit home. Revelation 3:20. You remember that whole "stand at the door and knock" thing? Dr. Golden noted that we always use that in an evangelistic sense. But the writer is not addressing the lost. He is writing to the church in Laodicea. Jesus is saying that He wants to be let in to the church. If the church will open its door and let Him come in and dine, it will be granted to them to sit with Him on His throne. How's that for getting smacked in the face.

And right before that, Jesus says that He disciplines and reproves those that He loves. Good stuff.

And don't even get me started about Sunday night.

You Tennessee fans should thank me. I was going to post about counting chickens.

Have a great Monday. Ask God today what is in your life that is keeping you from Him and let Him remove it.

Man, I'm a slacker

I've fallen off the blogwagon this week, but for good reason. As soon as I think of a good reason I'll let you know.

It has been a somewhat topsy-turvy week actually. I don't really know why but it feels as if this weekend comes hard-earned. Work has been even more physical than normal, which isn't a bad thing. I actually enjoy those days when I work my little tush off and quitting time comes before you know it. I think it's the sense of accomplishment that I like. Sort of like weathering a storm and coming out on the other side wide-eyed and pumped up. It's weird, really.

But also, I've worked this week in Seymour, Hinkle Road to be precise. That means that I've seen some of my peeps passing on the road. And for some reason, I LOVE that. I absolutely love looking up or hearing a horn beep and seeing a friend of mine. For example, this week I saw Terri England (I'm sure I spelled that wrong), V-baby, The Mikles's's's's, and a few others that most of you don't know. It kinda takes my mind off my living and reminds me of my life. Plus, it proves to people that I really do work sometimes.

JGen is on a break, which is good considering some have just lost interest. We'll start back refreshed and with a new game plan next month, which is our one year birthday. Oh, our little one is growing up so fast! (sniffle)

Thanks, Vanessa, for dinner and your computer expertise at mom's. And for making fun of my hideously overgrown mustache from back in the day. I'm still thinking of brangin' it back, y'all.

I hope everyone has a great weekend. Really, I mean that.

Daniel Defoe just reminded me of all the times I should have admitted I was wrong.

One of my favorite stories has always been Robinson Crusoe. The last time I read it I was a little too young to fully understand it due to the nearly three hundred year old language used. In fact, I think it is very neat that it is often considered one of the first novels in English, along with Gulliver's Travels and The Pilgrim's Progress.

Anyway, I'm reading Robinson Crusoe again. Now that I understand the language better, I remember why I loved it in the first place. The adventures he faces throughout the book would have any kid, or grown man, tossing aside the Playstation controllers and wishing he had set sail on an ocean voyage. Imagination really is better than computer graphics anyday.

The story goes that Robinson is a young kid who dreams of setting off on the seas, even against his father's adament warnings of falling into a life of misery and wandering. He runs off anyway and on his first voyage encounters a storm that has him begging for home and swearing off the seafaring life forever. But as is so often the case, once the sting of fear wears off he looks for another ship to board. I'll stop there in case you haven't read it. That's enough information to make my point.

I ran across this quote from the book that I actually remembered from the last time I read it, which was probably in my very early twenties. Oh, if I had only taken it to heart then. It quite possibly could have saved me much heartache. But here it is anyway. Crusoe is struggling between returning home or returning to the seas.

As to going home, shame opposed the best motions that offered to my thoughts; and it immediately occurred to me how I should be laughed at among the neighbours, and should be ashamed to see, not my father and mother only, but even everybody else; from whence I have often since observed how incongruous and irrational the common temper of mankind is, especially of youth, to that reason which ought to guide them in such cases, that they are not ashamed to sin, and yet are ashamed to repent; not ashamed of the action for which they ought justly to be esteemed fools, but are ashamed of the returning, which only can make them be esteemed wise men.

Pride is an ugly little booger.

"The gates of grace are never shut nor even less opened..."

And behold, a Canaanite woman from that region came out and was crying, "Have mercy on me, O Lord, Son of David; my daughter is severely oppressed by a demon." But He did not answer her a word. And His disciples came and begged Him, saying, "Send her away, for she is crying out after us." He answered, "I was sent only to the lost sheep of the house of Israel." But she came and knelt before Him, saying, "Lord, help me!" And He answered, "It is not right to take the children's bread and throw it to the dogs." She said, "Yes, Lord, yet even the dogs eat the crumbs that fall from their masters' table." Then Jesus answered her, "O woman, great is your faith! Be it done for you as you desire." And her daughter was healed instantly. --Matthew 15:22-28

I've often wondered why Jesus gave this woman such a seemingly harsh response. You can almost hear the collective gasps from all who were there. The great and loving, benevolent Son of God first ignores her and then tells her off. What's up, Jesus? Having a bad day or something?

As the writer of my devotional says, "Ah, the exercises that train a vigorous faith."

Jesus knew this woman just like He knew the woman at the well, just like He knows all of us who petition Him for blessings or deliverance. He knew that she could take some heat and that it would benefit her, and eventually us, greatly. Were she weak and unable to stand it, He no doubt would have spared her this test. But this chick had some grit.

According to this same account in Mark, Jesus came to Tyre and Sidon looking for some seclusion. He didn't want anyone to know He was there. But He could not be hidden. She wanted her child to be blessed and He cannot be hidden from a seeking soul.

Well, the disciples, loving and compassionate as they were, were bothered by her. They wanted Jesus to get rid of her. But her prayer was simple yet effective, "Lord, help me!"

Stop. What's up with these disciples? They want rid of people who need Jesus because they feel disturbed and can't hear Him, they bicker and argue over which one is the teacher's pet, they constantly presume to know what Jesus wants, and they even think they know best how worshippers should spend their money (relevant). Hmmm.... we would never do that, would we?

Moving on. Jesus's cold and cutting answers to this woman could not stop her, no sir. So here's what really got me about this story. The Creator of the universe, Son of God, Redeemer of all mankind, and Almighty God tells her to bug off. He's got other things to worry about. Does she sulk away?

Heck no, man. She turns it up a notch. This gal is seeking and will not be denied. I love this. How often do we take no for an answer and tuck our tails between our legs when God wishes us to soldier on? His Word tells of His great love for us, how He desires to give us good things, so why do we sometimes act like He is unconcerned?

I believe with all my heart that if God answered every prayer instantly, He would become nothing more to us than a servant who exists to fulfill our whimsical dreams. We must be trained. He must make us seek Him diligently and sometimes forcefully. Faith would not be strengthened in "magic eight ball" type solutions. It would be weakened to failure.

We must believe that the things His Word promises are true. He says to keep asking until the answer comes. If we would prove our faith to Him, we must believe that our prayers are beyond the help of any other source, and we must persevere.

I think the key to this whole story was that she agreed with Jesus. When He tells her that she is pretty much a dog, she agrees. "Yes, Lord, yet." She knows that she is undeserving of the children's bread, and simply asks for a crumb of the children's bread. She realizes her state and in three words, has His attention.

I think this is just what He was wanting to hear. "Yeah, I know I'm scum but who else am I going to turn to?" She acknowledges her condition and His grace.

When we pray to God, when we beg Him for blessings, how does He respond? If He says, "Why should I? Look at yourself. What have you done with what I've already given you?", do we reply, "Well, I've done this and this and this, I've prayed and read my Bible, I go to church and mostly act like a Christian in public."

Or do we agree with Him. "You're right. I'm lazy, unfaithful, selfish, unloving and after my own gain most of the time. But..."

But because of Jesus's blood You see me as Yours.

But You have promised to be faithful to me even though I mock Your love and grace daily.

But one small crumb of Your blessing is an eternal meal.

If you then, who are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father who is in heaven give good things to those who ask Him!

Happy long weekend!

A word of advice for the ladies

I'll get to that in a minute. So I usually save my random stuff for Thursday nights, I don't know why, that's just my routine. But it is late and, though I had a neat little devotional thing to share, I will have to postpone that until I can devote the proper time to coherent thoughts.

Someone asked me earlier in the evening if I had an adventurous day. I answered, "Naw, it was pretty boring."

Do you believe in jinxes?

I went to Spenser's soccer game around 7:00. They lost but it doesn't matter because he did a fantastic job, was sixteen times more agressive than any other player, and kept his cool. Proud of you on all counts, bro.

I sat through the game in excruciating pain. I pulled a bonehead move yesterday at work and totally screwed up my lower back. It didn't bother me that much at work today but later on it really started hurting. No amount of Advil, Tylenol, or Doan's back pills has had any effect yet.

I left the game hungry so I had big plans of fixing a big ol' supper when I got home. But first I had to unclog my tub drain. It has been slow-draining for a few days and Drano has been powerless against it. Today, it stopped draining at all. So I took a shower this evening standing in day old, cold, stagnant water.

Okay, unclog drain then supper. I tried to snake the drain to no avail. For those of you who aren't novice plumbers, that's a bad thing. A snake will usually take care of any normal clog. So I went under the house. It's now around 10:00, by the way. I introduce myself to Aragog and his multitude of children under my house and soon find the under side of the tub. There is a drain plug in the u-bend, which is a very good thing so I loosen the nut only to get showered by the water from my previous two showers. Not to mention the dirt, grease, hair, and whatever else is trapped in the drain pipe from the previous tenants. It's black and stinky. Ryan, you have my utmost respect for what you do.

Anyway, with filthy black hands and face, I manage to get the drain flowing properly. Victory!!! I get the tub cleaned up, then myself, and go to put on my pajamas.

I have two favorite pairs of pajamas. Maybe I'm just weird but I like wearing them better than any others. I had just washed and dried them last night so I was looking forward to donning them and eating supper, at 11:30 now, then crashing.

I pulled the blue-and-white striped ones out of the drawer and step in. My toe catches the little escape hatch in the front and RIIIPPP! All the way to the knee. I let out a frustrated sigh, count to ten, then calmly toss them. It's a sad loss but, hey, I've got another pair of favorites to fall back on. So I grab the dark and light blue checkered ones and step in.

RIIIPPP!!!

Oh you gotta be freakin' kidding me. Same thing happened. Why, God, why?!?!?

The morals of this story:

Don't, under any circumstances, do anything stupid at work that will aggravate chronic back injuries. Having a good work ethic has its limits.

Ladies, clean your hair out of the little screen that sits atop your tub drain so poor saps like me don't have to fix it later. And if you're a poor sap like me who is fixing a clogged drain due to ladies who don't clean the hair off the little screen that sits atop the tub drain, stand back, wear rubber gloves, and start earlier in the evening.

And, most importantly, be sure you have three pairs of favorite pajamas.

I'm going to bed hungry tonight. The perfect end to a "pretty boring" day.

Let me tell you about my double date...

Okay, everyone that knows me just popped up in their chair with their mouths hanging open. "He had a date?!?!"

Two of 'em, actually. I went to dinner with two nineteen year olds. But in order to keep from being labeled as a creepy, old guy, if you add them together then I went out with a thirty-eight year old.

I told Sarah and Virginia I was going to post that. Thanks, girls, for keeping me company. No worries, Spenser. I'm not her type.

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"My Opinion on the Property" by Chuck.

This is just because I can. I had previously said I wouldn't give my opinion because it didn't matter. It still doesn't matter, because the property doesn't matter. I don't think God is waiting to see which way we vote.

We've gotta get this God's will thing out of our heads. God's will is for us to continue to be a church, to be a family and encourage, support, and, most importantly, love each other and work together.

God's will is for us to reach out to the community and make sure they hear His Name. His will is for us to continue to seek Him every minute of every day and be used by Him for His plans and purposes. His will is for us to "put on the mind of Christ," and to obey Him and put Him first in our lives.

With acres and acres of land at our disposal, we can do all of these things, and then some.

We can also do them without a teaspoonful of dirt.

This is simply an opportunity. We can purchase this land and do great things for God, or we can let it pass and still do great things for God. Stock Creek will not become better or stronger either way because possessions have no bearing on the strength of God's church. The strength is in the faith, obedience, humility, and unity of the believers and the body as a whole.

It's what we do with the land that will matter. It's what we do without the land that will matter. God's will doesn't hinge on this proposal.

I'll be absent Wednesday night for two reasons. 1) I don't care either way, take it or leave it, it's only dirt and it's only money. I will whole-heartedly support either outcome. 2) I haven't been to a business meeting in years to vote on any matter. I am usually occupied otherwise. People will fuss and gripe about those who come out of the woodwork to vote against and for this proposal. I won't be one who makes a special appearance just to weigh in on something that is "en vogue."

I hope you can find some wisdom in this, or at least respect it. Here are two verses that have been in my head since this whole thing started and that helped me find peace about it.

One who is faithful in a very little is also faithful in much, and one who is dishonest in a very little is also dishonest in much. --Luke 16:10

And you shall remember the whole way that the Lord your God has led you these forty years in the wilderness, that He might humble you, testing you to know what was in your heart, whether you would keep His commandments or not. --Deuteronomy 8:2

Have a great week everyone. By the way, I LOVED Sunday night. The new Frequency schedule is going to be fabulous!

Funny how a study on prayer can be... well, funny

I read this today and cracked up. I don't know if it was the sarcasm or the fact that a preacher who lived 200 years ago made a joke in a sermon, but it's hilarious either way.

The author was expounding on the part of James 4:2 that says, "You do not have because you do not ask." He writes:

Many prayers fail to achieve their purpose because there is no faith behind them. Prayers that are filled with doubt are requests for refusal. Imagine that you wrote to a friend and said, "Dear friend, I am in great trouble. I am telling you this, and I am asking for your help, because it seems right to do so. But though I am writing to you, I do not believe you will send me any help. Indeed, I would be shocked if you did, and I would speak of it as a great wonder."

Classic.

And here's another quote from the same writer. This one made me stop and check myself in regards to SCBC's impending vote on the property. As we wait with bated breath for the outcome of next week's vote (okay, maybe that was a little too dramatic), let's all take one more opportunity to make sure we have the right motive, but especially the right perspective.

You can get that new, clever minister and that new church, and that new organ and choir. You can even get them without prayer. However, you cannot get the heavenly anointing without prayer. The gift of God is not to be purchased with money.

Some members of a small village church thought that they would build their congregation by hanging a very handsome chandelier in the meetinghouse. Indeed, the villagers talked about this chandelier, and some went to see it, but the light of it soon grew dim.

You can by all sorts of fancy furniture, you can purchase any kind of paint, brass, and fine linen, together with flutes, organs, and all kinds of instruments. You can get these without prayer. In fact, it would be disrespectful to pray about such rubbish. But you cannot get the Holy Spirit without prayer. Like the wind, He goes where He wishes. He will not be brought nearby any process or method apart from asking.

All I'm saying is that by all means let's buy stuff. Let's spend money and set goals and have vision. I'm thrilled that we are blessed to do so. But I sincerely pray that we never, EVER rely on the stuff to draw people in. I hope we never put the material things that we purchase in His Name above His Name.

Well then. Have a great day.

For once, I'm holding my tongue. You should be impressed

I have about a gazillion things on my mind that I would love to post about.

I could talk about the obvious things, like church and potential property procurement (say that five times real fast), I could talk about people that I am deeply concerned about, I could talk about the student ministry and where that is going, but I won't.

I have my own opinions about the property but I feel that voicing them would stir the pot, so to speak. Some would say that I should speak my mind, let my voice be heard. I could do that but I am almost certain that some of the people I love the most would be hurt, others would be angry, and others still would just not understand. So, yeah, I could rant and rave at the top of my lungs. But I won't.

That ain't how I roll.

There are some people that I am concerned about, and I mean tormented in the depths of my soul. I would NEVER call them out but I could use this blog to work out my thoughts or vent or preach messages with hidden meanings or just type a bunch of wise-sounding words that make it sound like I have God's wisdom all to myself. I could, but I won't.

It's not my way.

What I will do is continue to do what I have been doing. I try to post things that are Spirit-led, thought-provoking and in line with what God has called me to do. Some of those things cross people sometimes but there's not alot I can do about that. I've been called out by some folks for being a "downer" or a too negative at times. I should write more things that are uplifting and less convicting, they say. I've been told of conversations regarding this that I wasn't part of. That's all okay, though.

If I'm a Jeremiah in the midst of a group of Peters and Pauls, so be it. I can only speak my heart. Anything else would be fake. The things God talks to me about are relevant to my life and I can only pass them along. I assure you that even though the icky-sticky stuff makes you feel bad at first, there is no greater joy than knowing that God desires me to be more and more like Him. He loves me enough to continually work to draw me closer to Him.

In other news, I must say that I'm glad Spenarah moved back home. I got to hang out with them tonight and didn't have to drive sixty miles. Actually, I didn't even have to leave the couch!

Man, I hate it when I get kicked in the face

If you will indulge me, I have a few words of personal testimony. Nothing earth-shattering, mind you, just a sampling of what's going on in Chucky-land.

I miss God. I know that sounds ridiculous but it's true. I guess with moving, Romania, and general busy-ness in life I have just lost focus. It's funny that even a mission trip can be a distraction if your heart is a little left of center. But recently I have really longed to be closer to God.

Over the past year and a half, my relationship with God has reached new levels of intimacy, devotion, and passion. It has been amazing to see Him work and bring about things that I never dreamed of. But lately (a few months) I've slacked in my study time and my prayer time has really, really fallen off. The ol' slippery slope again. Man, I'm a sucker for that.

So in the past couple of weeks, I've been troubled about all of this. There have been several wet-eyed nights, sleepless nights, and heavy-hearted days. The worst of it is that even with a desire to reconnect, I've still found difficulty in turning back to Him.

But things are a-changing. God has shown me areas where I need work, things I've let interfere and things that I had dropped that I need to pick back up and continue pursuing. These burdens require much prayer.

Prayer. Back to that again. I need prayer to help... scratch that. Help implies assistance which implies that I just need an extra hand with this. That's not quite how it is. I don't need assistance, I need deliverance.

So in my prodigal-like return to closeness with God, I have found a passage that I will now share. Not only does it describe my recent dilemma, it also prescribes the cure. By the way, I totally ripped this off.

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from "How to Pray," by R.A. Torrey --

In the twelfth chapter of the Acts of the Apostles, we have a record of a prayer that prevailed with God and brought to pass great results. In the fifth verse of this chapter, the manner and method of this prayer are described in few words:

"Prayer was made without ceasing of the church unto God for him."

The first thing to notice in this verse is the brief expression unto God. The prayer that has power is the prayer that is offered unto God.

But some will say, "Is not all prayer unto God?"

No. Very much of so-called prayer, both public and private, is not unto God. In order that a prayer should be really unto God, there must be a definite and conscious approach to God when we pray; we must have a definite and vivid realization that God is bending over us and listening as we pray. In very much of our prayer, there is really but little thought of God. Our mind is taken up with the thought of what we need, and is not occupied with the thought of the mighty and loving Father of whom we are seeking it. Oftentimes it is the case that we are occupied neither with the need nor with the One to whom we are praying, but our mind is wandering here and there throughout the world. There is no power in that sort of prayer. But when we really come into God's presence, really meet Him face-to-face in the place of prayer, really seek the things we desire from Him, then there is power.

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Okay. Maybe you're a much better Christian than me (most likely), or you're just a more effective praying person (also likely). But I can honestly say that alot of my prayer times are taken up with my focus on the need. "God, can't You see how much I need this? Surely I've been good enough to deserve this? Throw me a bone here. I don't ask You for much and it really would solve everything." (God snickers)

Our faith shouldn't be in the righteousness of our request. Many things that we pray for are very godly but we let our understanding of God tell us that He should want this, too. I don't think it works that way.

Our faith and focus should be in the One who loves us enough to want to give us good things, and has the power to provide our needs. Only He has the wisdom and knowledge to define "good."

Funny side-note: in 1875 when R.A. Torrey came to realize his spiritual state and surrendered his life to Christ, he prayed, "Oh God, deliver me from this burden -- I'll even preach."

Stab the Pickle

I'm going to open a booth at the fair this year. It will be called "Stab the Pickle." Judging from the amount of money those carnies make from all the other impossible games, I'll be independently wealthy at 38.

I spent twenty minutes trying to get a pickle out of a jar tonight. I had a knife and jabbed down into the jar, just like I always do, which usually works flawlessly. I have loved pickles since I was a wee lad so I'm quite an accomplished pickle-poker. But tonight, I lost my mojo. That little sucker squirted all around the jar, bouncing from side to side, up and down, just out of reach of my too-wide-for-the-mouth-of-the-jar hand. Sure, I could've changed tactics, tried a fork or needle-nosed pliers, but where's the victory in that?

Look at 'em up there, taunting me with their beady little bumpy spot things.

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Today was the day I dread every two years at work. Yes, to my horror, today was Department of Transportation-mandated physical examination day. We have to be re-certified every two years in order to drive our company vehicles so that you people can go about your business on the roads without the fear of large, heavy trucks running all over your keesters. Physical exams are a walk in the park for me, I'm generally a healthy guy. But these exams come with an eye test. And, yep, that means color tests, too. (shudder)

Lucky for me (and you all), I am an accomplished sneak. The eye chart, the one with all the funny words on it like "defpotec" and "gnyxlep", was posted on the wall at the end of the hallway that I had to walk down to get to the paperwork room. So I stole a glance and memorized lines five through eight. The test was a breeze.

The color test consists of colored thumbtacks that I had to identify as the lady pointed at them. Never let it be said that luck doesn't get you anywhere. I passed with flying colors. Get it? Flying colors? Color test? I kill myself.

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I guess that's enough senseless banter for tonight. Friday night should be fun. Go here for details. I'm looking forward to just hanging out and relaxing. I hope everyone can make it. I think we'll watch The Princess Bride.

Have a great weekend, y'all. Sunday night begins our new stuff in Frequency. It's gonna be really, really awesome.

If a tree falls in the woods...

...will anyone hear it? I won't debate the answer to that question (I say yes, if anyone's around) but this I do know: If a tree falls in a residential neighborhood, most likely no one will hear anything on their telephone.

We've had a lot of rain lately, as you all know, and that always means more work for moi. Heavy rains mean saturated soil which means that roots are anchored in loose, watery mud instead of firm, dry soil. Add a little wind and, voila, Chuckie's working late.

Just a couple of days ago we were called, (at 3 stinking 30) to go to a small neighborhood behind Berry Funeral Home. Ugh. Lots of old trees there. We arrived and saw what you see above, only there was a telephone cable underneath it. This tree was HUGE! It was as big around as my dining room table. Okay, not my table because mine is rectangular (and scorched) but as big as a round dining room table. Trust me, it was a big 'un.

We looked over the damage and made a call for some new cable. While we were waiting for that to be delivered, we studied this tree and oohed and aahed over the size and how it wasn't dead. In fact, to look inside the exposed trunk it looked very healthy and alive. The problem was under the ground. The exposed root ball had a large, cavernous hole underneath. The tree didn't break, it didn't even blow over. One side had actually washed out under it and the thing just simply tipped over, just like if your tire goes flat and one corner of your car lowers. It was amazing.

As I stood and gawked about this, my wheels started turning. No matter how healthy and alive something appears, inside or out, knock out the foundation and it will topple over and come crashing down.

According to the grace of God given to me, like a skilled master builder I laid a foundation, and someone else is building upon it. Let each one take care how he builds upon it. For no one can lay a foundation other than that which is laid, which is Jesus Christ. --1 Corinthians 3:10,11

I will say again that if I had met Paul in the first century, I don't think I would have liked him. Great preacher, yes, but still, we wouldn't have clicked for other reasons. But one thing about him that I love, he was constanly reminding the believers of what they had been taught by him. He wasn't about to let them plead ignorance. If they fell away, it was their choice but he kept their faith fresh on their minds.

Here he reminds them that the basis of it all, everything that they do, believe, every work they perform, is built on the foundation of Christ. He is the reason and the cause of all we do. It's all for Him, about Him, and by Him. And anything built upon that will be tested by fire; the things that survive bringing reward, and the things that are burned up suffering loss.

The Old Testament prophesies of this:

...therefore thus says the Lord God, "Behold, I am the One who has laid as a foundation in Zion, a stone, a tested stone, a precious cornerstone, of a sure foundation: 'Whoever believes will not be in haste.' " --Isaiah 28:16

Ah yes, now the personal part. How's your foundation? How strong are the central, core beliefs and the fundamental faith and love you have for God? Will they withstand a storm? Will Satan wash out underneath you and bring you crashing down with the simplest temptation? When you face the world and the deceptions it throws our way, will you become weakened and fall in with them, your faith toppling like the tree above?

I did. I do, frequently. I couldn't see it at the time but, ya know, hindsight and all that jazz. I've been a sucker for deception. I've often said that I am the devil's favorite Christian, so easy to sway. It's only because, at the time, I wasn't building anything worthwhile on my foundation. I've known Jesus for a long time and that will never change or weaken. But failing to maintain our relationship by not staying in the Word, not furthering my prayer life, and not doing the works that will stand the test of fire leaves me, and you, vulnerable and unsteady. The roots are still intact but the ground around them can't hold them in place. All it took for that big, strong tree to fall was for a little trickle of water to slowly but eventually wash out the foundation.

Sorry if this bored you but sometimes working late pays more than overtime wages.

Have a great Wednesday.

Point of view matters alot.

Cap'n Barbosa -- "The world's a-gettin' smaller."

Cap'n Jack Sparrow -- "The world hasn't changed. It's just less empty."

I love these lines from At World's End. Even though the movie is a little too outlandishly cheesy at times. It seems that things look different to everyone. It just depends on the place from which you are looking.

Honestly, this quote made me think of church. Uh oh. Now I've done it.

It seems there is a concentration of our church members who are drifting away right now. I'm sure some have valid reasons but from what the grapevine tells me, most are just making up reasons and then trying to justify them. My question is, "Why?"

A year ago I would have wished them all well because it was hard to be there most of the time. We could have hired a full-time bookie to take bets on who would be preaching, people were at each others throats trying to get their candidates name in the hat, and the music was, well, if you were there then I need say no more.

But now? Things are really good, y'all. We've got some good things going on, people are passionate about their respective causes, Dr. Golden has provided great stability in the pulpit and his teaching is as solid and biblical as you will find anywhere, and G-man has the choir back to a good number and the music is favorable to all. It's a good time to be at SCBC.

So why are people unhappy? I think they just can't see the forest for the trees, so to speak. We went for a few years in constant turmoil and now that things have calmed down and gotten enjoyable again, some people can't adjust. Maybe they're still looking for an on-going problem or something. I don't know. But now doesn't seem like the time to be bailing out. It's the perfect time to be getting re-involved.

So let's take those principles and apply them to the "Upper Room" (the youth room, to the lay-person). Good changes are coming, great new approach and teachings, and JGen is about to turn one year old (Sniff. Sorry, it's really just my allergies). But some regulars aren't as regular as they used to be and that makes me sad. I miss them alot. I know that summer does that but should it? Shouldn't we be faithful no matter what season it is? Shouldn't we remain faithful no matter what life throws our way? I believe with all my heart that if something draws us away from the things we do for God and the people we love there at church, then it's a distraction. Yeah, I'll say it. High School sports included.

God has us all there for a reason, and He has us all serving in the student ministry for a reason. I want to take that a little more seriously. Loving on our kids and influencing them and being mentors to them is a huge responsibility, but it's a great blessing, too. Because, to be completely honest, I don't want them to make my mistakes. I don't want them to turn out like me. I want to do all I can to help them live better and make better decisions than I did. One thing that my bad decisions have taught me is that life is too short to make bad decisions.

So, what I mean by all that is let's all re-ignite our fires. I don't think things have changed that much from a year ago or even the beginning of 2009. I think we just need to see things the way we did then.

Ta-ta.

Here's your sign.

And the angel of the Lord appeared to him and said to him, "The Lord is with you, O mighty man of valor." And Gideon said to him, "Please, sir, if the Lord is with us then why has all this happened to us? And where are all his wonderful deeds that our fathers recounted to us...' " --Judges 6:12,13

And the Lord turned to him and said, "Go in this might of yours and save Israel from the hand of Midian; do I not send you?" --Judges 6:14

Mighty man of valor?!? Sounds more like a whiner and excuse-maker to me. But I think I'll start using that title on my friends: Spenser Proctor, Mighty Man of Valor. Sure beats Ph.D, huh?

Poor Gideon was a complainer. But isn't that how God chooses His servants? If He chose great, accomplished men then the men would get the glory. Seriously, if Bill Gates were called to give his wealth to the Lord, what would be the big deal? The money would be the big deal. But a poor woman with a few coins gives all that she has and God is glorified in her faith.

So it is with Gideon. He says, "What do you mean the Lord is with us? I don't see it!"

But this time God, not the angel, speaks. "Giddy-up, Gideon! I am with you." (That was really cheesy. Sorry).

Then Gideon said to God, "If You will save Israel by my hand, as You have said, behold, I am laying a fleece of wool on the threshing floor. If there is dew on the fleece alone, and it is dry on all the ground, then I shall know that you will save Israel by my hand, as You have said." And it was so. When he rose early next morning and squeezed the fleece, he wrung enough dew from the fleece to fill a bowl with water. --Judges 6:36-38

You gotta be kidding. God Himself appears to this guy and tells him He's got his back and he still asks for a sign. Can't you just see God rolling His eyes? But He obliges and Gideon wrings out his Sham-Wow like a sponge. Maybe the angel was Billy Mays? (R.I.P)

In the following verses, Gideon asks for one more little sign of God's sincerity. This time he wants the ground wet and the fleece dry. And God once again performs. So did Gideon get God to show His power? Did God prove to Gideon how almighty and faithful He is?

Nope. Gideon already knew that. Gideon knew God. All Gideon managed to prove was how insecure, faithless, and doubtful he was. But the next time God asks him to do something, he responds right away.

I was asked to teach Sunday School this morning and this was our lesson. I've ripped Gideon for being so weak but the truth is, haven't we all done this? Haven't we asked for God to prove to us that we are right?

Jesus rebuked the Pharisees and Sadducees for asking for a sign (Matthew 16). What is it that we are really asking for when we ask for a sign? Isn't the Holy Spirit here to counsel and guide us instead?

I think, based on my own mistakes and faults (they are not so few), that we usually already know the answers to the questions we pose to God. We are just hoping that God will eventually conform to our wishes. So we pray, and pray some more for an outcome that fits what we want. We are trying to make Him our servant.

So we ask for a sign. Then we watch and hope for something that reinforces our desires. It's not hard to find something like that to latch onto when have convinced ourselves that we are right. Just like with Gideon, God does provide confirmations and such. But if we are watching for a sign that we choose, then we will ignore what He wants us to see in lieu of what we are hoping to see.

I guess it all comes back to surrender and truly being willing to seek God's wisdom and follow it even when it opposes our will. Dr. Golden mentioned this morning about presuming upon God, which means that we take it upon ourselves to determine what God would or should want. I think those of us who have been believers for a long time find it easy to assume we know God well enough to do His thinking for Him. Probably not a good idea, but I can recall times when I have been guilty of that very thing.

So I guess the point is that we don't need signs from God because we have God Himself leading our way. His word is His sign ("Our word is our bond, Harry!").

Yay! It's Monday! (can you feel the sarcasm?)

I kinda feel like I'm wiping the sleep out of my eyes

I had one of those days that makes me want to do this. No reason, I guess. But it didn't really start out that way so I guess it was church that did it.

I had a conversation with Benji after everyone had left and found myself almost giddy about the upcoming changes. He's got a great new way of doing things and the fact that I like it says alot. I'm not much of a changer, or decider.

Actually, I do like things getting shaken up occasionally but I was a little worried about these changes because I've been so fond of the way we've done things for... hmm, let's see... three years now? Wow.

Of course, I won't spoil things by telling you what the different schedule is. That's not my place. But you'll like it. Trust me.

My excitement, though, is not really in the new schedule, it's the new approach. What the Grand High Potentate has come up with is one of those things that builds and strengthens relationships between us all. It's back to that whole accountability and encouragement thing we all blogged about months ago (whatever happened to that?). Remember Jonah? Dying to self? Swallowed Alive?

I guess life and summer got in the way. That happens, ya know. But no matter. What does matter is that we all have that same desire to grow closer to God, each other, and pick up where things left off. Not that we've fallen or stumbled or anything bad, but our intensity faded. Our focus fox got ran over.

Sarah said it best (she does that alot). Discipline. There are many disciplines that we need in our lives but our spiritual disciplines are essential. It's not just the daily prayer and study time, but the vision, creativity, fellowship, and family time with our crew that keeps us strong and, yes, focused.

It's like the Good Reverend said just tonight, we are in a battle everyday. No one can stand alone. That's very true. We need our little pow-wows to regroup.

So I look forward to tightening the noose around my own neck. That may not be the best way to put it but I need to be spiritually challenged to grow. You do, too. We need the trials of life, the mountains and valleys, but we also need to simply re-evaluate our walk every now and then. We need to look at our way of living and our decision-making and see if they match up with God's desires. Holiness is a lofty goal, but it's attainable.

So that's why I'm Snoopy-dancing today. Because God has brought us to a place that will bring us closer to Him by putting our love for Him to the test through our obedience to Him.

Didn't the old G.I. Joe cartoons say something about "knowing is half the battle?" Hmmm...

Turning over a new leaf, over and over and over

I pulled this picture simply because it makes me grin. Rachel truly was a rose on our trip because she was always in a good mood no matter what situation we were in.

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Finally, then, brothers, we ask and urge you in the Lord Jesus, that as you received from us how you ought to walk and to please God, just as you are doing, that you do so more and more.

For God has not called us for impurity, but in holiness. Therefore, whoever disregards this, disregards not man but God, who gives His Holy Spirit to you.

These verses from 1 Thessalonians 4 have been on my mind for a few weeks. I was thinking about the limits we place on ourselves when it comes the way we live. Dr. Golden touched on this Sunday and that brought it home for me.

I think too often we decide we want to live better, holier even, and we psyche ourselves up for a great lifestyle change, get a fresh, blank journal and put our Bible a little closer to the bedside, and then... ____.

Our Christian life has many seasons of ups and downs, just ask anyone who has been a believer for more than twenty minutes. By ups and downs I mean times when we walk the line and times when we swerve from ditch to ditch. If you don't know what I'm talking about, you're a saint. Congratulations.

Paul wrote that when it comes to how we should walk and live to please God, do that then do more. And more. There are no limits, there is no point of achievement, no checklist to complete. There isn't a, "Whew! Made it!" It's an on-going process that takes diligence.

He goes on to say that our sanctification is God's will and we should abstain from sexual immorality and be self-controlled in holiness and honor, because we are called in holiness. I expect we will all hear more on the holiness topic in the coming weeks.

I know we can all pursue holiness more diligently because, honestly, there is always more to pursue. We aren't closer to the finish because we're better than some or most. The benchmark isn't people, people. It's Jesus.

Paul also wrote, and Dr. G also spoke about, "persuasive words", or "plausible arguments" (Colossians 2:4). It doesn't take much to let our guard down and be persuaded by people who want to tear down our beliefs. In fact, Paul says that we should take care that we aren't deceived or deluded by them.

So I see it this way. Since we know how we ought to walk and live, we should just simply live that way. God has given us His Spirit to guide us. To not listen to that voice is to turn our back on God Himself. The enemy is actively pursuing us all, trying to deceive us through any means possible. Pursuing God and holiness is our only defense. And that's the beauty of the simplicity of God's Word. As the good Dr. said, "If the Bible says to avoid something, it says that for a reason."

Now that I've managed to rid myself of H1N1...

let's get back to business. My life the past few days has consisted of church, work and sleep. I can't remember when I've felt this sick. But I am on the mend, so, allow me to talk about the darling people who probably gave me swine flu.

The photo above represents a typical day in Tataresti after bible school. All the children are leaving, some with parents or older siblings, some alone. Shortly after this we would put all the chairs back out and sit down for a palate-pleasing meal of peanut butter and jelly or honey sandwiches. Every day. During lunch we would all talk about who was attentive and who we thought really got the message.

I will always remember thinking of these kids and wondering what was going through their minds while we taught them about Jesus, tried to tell them how a fisherman named Peter met this Man and learned to believe Him, trust Him, and follow Him, and how they all needed Him more than they needed anything else. At the time it seemed almost silly to try and convince these poor, under-privileged people that they could find joy in their lives even without clothes or food or any ceature comforts.

But they felt joy. They felt love. They felt it enough to come back four more days, some walking who knows how far just to spend two hours playing, making a simple necklace, and listening to us sing and talk. Something brought them back.

I assure you it wasn't a game, a skit, a song with animated hand motions, or a bible story in a language they had probably never heard. It most certainly wasn't any one of us that drew them back to that little church at the bend of the road.

That's what ran through my mind each day as they left. I hated to see them go but I knew they would be back. They would be back because it didn't matter how many of them "got it." They would come back because they had felt something that many of them had never felt before. They had heard the message, the message that we sometimes take for granted as old news, routine, or those stories we heard in our childhood.

Some of them may never hear it again. But that's okay. They heard it for one short week. And sometimes, once is all it takes.

Revelation 3:20 says, "...I stand at the door and knock." We can only pray that the message these Romanians and Hungarians were given finds a way to pry open the door. We have completed the task that we were given and now we leave them in the hands of the Holy Spirit, knowing that He desires their acceptance more than anything.

I'm really grateful to God for the opportunity I had to go there and share Him with them. Continue to pray for the children of Tataresti.

Ladies and gentlemen, I present to you......

Gringott's Bank. That's right. Diagon Alley is not in London, it's in Vienna. And I was there.

Okay, so that's cheesy but it's the first thing I thought of when I saw this building. Potter fans unite!

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Well, we are home. Hallelujah!

What a trip it was! I will go on and on in future posts and tell stories just like everyone else but this is not the post for that. This post is dedicated to homecoming.

Words can't say how happy I am to be back where I belong. Europe is beautiful, and being the history freak that I am, I can never see enough Renaissance art and architecture. And the Roman ruins in Vienna honestly had me choked up because I couldn't believe I was standing next to something I have dreamed of seeing for so long. I saw statues dedicated to Caesar Augustus (yes, the same one from Luke 2:1), Emperor Constantine, etc., etc. Like I said, on and on.

But I spent two weeks on a mission trip in a tiny Gypsy village with JGen. My JGen. Not mine to own but mine that God has blessed me to be a part of. It will make your hearts explode with joy when you see the photos of them with the kids from Tataresti. The happiness they brought to those under-privileged children in one short week will stick with them for the rest of their lives. The JGenners put smiles on the faces of kids who have very little to be happy about, they played with them, laughed with them, prayed with them, treated them as equals while their own neighbors shun them and oppress them. They loved them. And most of them have felt very little love in their lives.

Sarah, Virginia, Hannah, Hayley, Rachel, Spenser, John (JGenner now by default), I am more proud of you than ever. And I know that God is pleased with you, too. You put a face to the Name of Jesus these past two weeks. The kids there that surrendered to Him will always remember you all as the proof that He is real and that He loves them. I love you all.

But I have to confess. I was a complete jerk for most of the trip. I picked the wrong time to break a nicotine addiction. It was the biggest struggle I've ever faced and the two week headache due to withdrawal affected everyone around me. My mood was sour and my attitude bitter, as I told Spenser and John, I was the spirit of discord and bitterness. I'm terribly sorry to all of you for acting like a butt. But you showed your true character by overlooking me and not letting me get in the way.

However, the sun is shining. I am now tobacco free. I know many of you are happy about this but no one more than me. It feels like broken chains, to be honest. Praise God for breaking them.

Favorite homecoming story: About four days ago, we were eating ice cream (gelato) at this little streetside cafe thing. I had the "X-Trem Minta." I commented that the mint was a little minty-er that day. Hayley Taylor, who was dying to get home, said, "Yeah, the mint is minty-er, the sky is bluer, the grass is greener because we are one more day closer to home."

I cracked up.

Good to be back, y'all. Even though the time change and jet-lag has me waking up at 3:30 a.m. I'm doing laundry as I blog.

Happy Friday. Mays clan... be safe and have fun at the beach.

Buna Ziua! That means hello.

It is 10:00 p.m. here in lovely Satu Mare, Romania on Friday night. It has been a long and grueling week of VBS in the village of Tataresti (the "i" is silent). We have some amazing stories from the past week but I won't spoil it for the rest of the team by telling it all here.

The team I am speaking of is one half of the VBS crew. Half of our fellow travelling partners are in Baba Novac village. Our team in Tataresti is as follows:

Benji, Angela, and Bennett

Snoop Doug

Virginia

Sarah

Spenser

Johnny DQ

Hannah G-riffin

Translators...Bianca and Corrina

and, yours truly.

We had about sixty kids the first day, and our "top score" for the week was around 100. Salvation decisions are somewhere around 50-60. But, like I said, many stories and blog posts to come. Not just from me, I'm sure.

Anyway, we are safe and having a great time. We have a youth rally tomorrow and Monday is a free day. We then leave for Austria (G'day, mate!), and then homeward bound. I have loved this trip but I think I'm ready to start thinking about home again. Truth is, I miss y'all a whole bunch. As amazing as this experience is, there's no substitute for home, JGen, SCBC, Frequency, and everything else we've left behind.

And apparently we have to arrange our own transportation from McGhee-Tyson, a tidbit I missed out on earlier. So if anyone is in the taxi business next Thursday, I'll call you from Chi-town.

La Revedere!

Here are a few things....just in case

If you think the next two weeks will be hard for you, just remember the people who will be tolerating me. Two weeks without Mountain Dew, Fudge Rounds, or tobacco. This is the reason that mission trips are a sacrifice. It is very unlikely that I will be able to remain light-hearted and jovial under such circumstances. But I am happy to be ridding myself of tobacco once and for all. It worked the last time I went so let's hope lightning strikes twice. And this time I will not start back. Hold me accountable.

This trip will most certainly be life-changing, and considering the people who are going, then it will also be church-changing. There is definitely something brewing and I can't wait for it. If I were to choose a group of people to fly off to a foreign country with, these would be the people. There are a few others I wish could be there with us and you all will be missed, but maybe next time.

I appreciate what Benji said tonight. I am stoked about returning home and getting to work with a new attitude and a new passion for the ministry. Something great is just a few weeks away and I am grateful to God that He is allowing me to be a part of it. His mercy never ceases to amaze me.

For those of you staying behind, I hope you know how much I love you all and want nothing less than God's best for you. Please don't worry too much about your loved ones as they are in God's care and His hand will be on us as we travel. Do not cease to pray for us while we are away because I can tell you from personal experience that those prayers are felt and treasured even 9000 miles away. The greatest excitement on a trip like this is the anticipation of coming home and sharing the stories with you who walk with us here.

Finally, I wish with all my heart that the whole JGen group was going along. The last ten months of Friday nights have been amazing and I can't imagine what things were like before. Take care of things while we're gone and, Lord willing, we'll be back in a few weeks with a renewed Spirit and passion.

I've had international roaming activated on my phone so if you just can't stand us being out of touch, feel free to call or text. Dial as normal, so I'm told. We'll be in touch, I'm calling it the "Homesick Hotline."

Check here for posts from Romania. Not that I'll have time but, hey, ya never know.

Adio. Te iubesc foarte mult.

Dumnezeu te mai ţine în siguranţă în timp ce noi suntem departe.