God uses children

Oh, I'm gonna pay for this one. But sometimes you just can't resist.

Big hair and a naked baby, all that's missing is a tube top and it's "Wal-Mart, here we come!"

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I need to give some props to two of our very young ones tonight. They'll probably never see this but you guys will and that means something.

This morning, I had the "pleasure" of speaking in Can-Do Club for Prayz Dayz. I was asked to speak for about fifteen minutes about forgiveness. No big deal, really, except that trying talk about forgiveness to fifth graders and below is a daunting task.

So I was tore up nervous. I don't have a problem speaking to people, especially about God. I've taught all sorts of classes, delivered "sermons" (they aren't really sermons if you aren't ordained, right?), and spoken at my father's and grandfather's funerals. But the thought of facing down these children had me quivering.

After Sunday School, I made the torturously long trek down the third floor hallway, still wishing for a fire drill or something to get me off the hook. When I got near the Can-Do room, all the kids were queued up outside. All of a sudden, Bennett and Charlie break from the herd and come running, full out, toward me.

"Uncle Chip! Uncle Chip!" was all I could hear as the two boys each grabbed a thigh and squeezed my legs so tight I thought I would drop. I looked down into their smiling faces and the nerves broke. All my apprehension faded away and for the rest of the service, things went swimmingly.

Thanks, God, for suffering the little children to come unto me.

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And now, I am going to fuss about the frustrations of moving. It's exciting but also quite a chore. I'm in the process of sifting through ten years of crap; crap being clothes, papers, pictures, dishes, and on and on and on.

I'm not a messy person but right now I feel like it.

I'm trying to get rid of the junk. The less crap I have, the less crap I have to move.

So those screams you hear are mine.

If I have any wonderful, dear, dedicated friends who have free evening time to help me rifle through my life, do call.

Ġesù inti tant iħobb.

Movin' on

I'm really happy so I'm taking a break from the wisecracks tonight, but just long enough to say that this may be the single best picture ever taken. Ever. Not just by me but anyone, anywhere, ever. But I'm not one to brag. It's not the photographer, it's the subjects. If you know Virginia, Sarah, and Heather then you know that this photo has captured them perfectly. I can't look at this picture without smiling back at them. Well done, gals.

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I'm very excited right now. I have a little something going on that screams, "God did it! God did it!" This might sound crazy to most people but to me it's amazing. So, here you go.

It's my house. I sold it. More precisely, Ryan sold it, and pretty much without having to try. I guess he's a natural.

Several months ago, my sister was renting a house. When we moved her in, I noticed how much nicer the house was than mine and said, casually, that if I had known it was available I would have taken it and put mine up for sale. I've been in my house for nine years now. When I moved in it was with the intention of staying no more than ten years. How about that?

So, a few months later, my sister moved out of the rental house and no more thought was given to it. Until Ryan said something to me one day about a friend of his whose mother-in-law was wanting a small place near John Sevier Highway, blah, blah, blah. I said something like, "Yeah, it would be nice to sell mine but I'm not ready to take such a risk with the economy how it is." End of story.

Nope. Ryan apparently wasn't happy with my response because he kind of stayed on me about it until I eventually agreed to let him show the house thinking, "What the heck. It couldn't hurt." So we worked up a time and I spent late nights and countless amounts of energy over the course of a week to get the place presentable. I left one Saturday for a few hours and gave Ryan the keys and a good luck wish.

All this time I was thinking that no one would want this place for what I needed to get out of it. But if they did, man, that would be awesome. I could get mostly out of debt, move into a nicer place for less money, have a place to entertain (it's got an awesome back deck that's covered), and save money for a while then look for a new place. Mostly, I am just ready to take a step. Make some forward progress. That's one of those spiritual/emotional things but, at my age, forward movement and a sense of accomplishment are important. Ah yes, wish and want.

Those of you who have been to my house know that it's no Biltmore. It's small, old, dumpy, and fraught with issues. So I'm sure you can agree that selling it would be a chore. Unless, of course, you know Ryan Thomas and God.

So Ryan shows the house and then calls me.

"Hey. What's up?"

"Nothing much." What do you think is up? I'm on pins and needles here.

"I sold it."

"Ex-squeeze me?"

"I sold your house."

"You're sh#**#%g me."

"Nope. They walked in the front door and loved it. The color's what did it."

The color. The prospective buyers liked the color. The color of the house of a color-blind guy who picked out the color by himself. Anybody else seeing a great, big God here?

I don't want to sound too Joel Osteen-ish here, but I'm beginning to think I'm not the only one who wants me to sell my house.

So the deal is under way. It's not done yet, we haven't even set a closing date. But it's never too early to be amazed by God. Whether or not it goes through is not what's important. Sometimes the important thing is just the feeling you get when you realize that God truly is looking out for you.

Happy Friday, kids!

Let's get dirty

What JGenners do best. Is that a chainsaw I hear?

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Benji's theory about Wednesdays being refreshing has proven true. That's exactly the word I would use to describe my state of mind tonight. I had a few really good talks (or texts) today, all JGenners of course, because those are the only people who will talk to me. Anyway, that mid-week re-connection does a body good. And laughing helps alot.

So tonight, the High Potentate talked about being broken or being crushed. He remarked that there is joy in brokenness, and I agree. These are just a few thoughts on that.

Being broken ain't fun. But it is necessary. I think the joy of it comes from the realization that at rock bottom, there's no one there to help except the only One who can help. Something about that awakening to God's love, even tough love, in the first moments of genuine brokenness stirs up the joy of the soul by recognizing that all barriers have been torn down and nothing stands between God and ourselves. We have come to the end or ourselves, and our hope rests solely with God who desires more than anything to lift us up. Our souls are connected with Him in the purest form of spiritual communication.

Then we see things from His perspective. We get a glimpse of His intentions and an earnest desire to follow His leading, knowing that we are in His will. It's the peace in the storm, so to speak.

When I think about my own experience with brokenness, I always think of the passion and zeal that it breeds. It's in those times that I'm willing to do anything, go anywhere, be anybody, as long as God wants me to. It's a shame that those desires for obedience fade with time.

Anyway, just some thoughts from my pensieve (Potter fans get it). I'll leave you with one of my fav-o-rite songs. It's been stuck in my head all day.

Smile! Tomorrow's Friday.

Jekyll and Hyde

Mean chicks, dude.

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It's hard living two separate lives. When I think about the title of this post, I don't really think about the story that scared me as a kid. I think about the people who put themselves through the torture of trying to be two different people.

I've been there before. Wearing two masks. On one, a face of good, godly, church-involvement and talking a good game of love and friendship. But on the other, trying to please worldly people and be what I have to be to keep them in my life. The question is, "Why would I want to?"

This is one of those black-and-white Bible things. The Word is very clear about how we can't serve two masters and that by becoming friends with the world, we become an enemy of God. There's no gray area there. So why is it that everywhere you turn, you see the world stealing people away from the church?

Because, "even Satan disguises himself as an angel of light." We fall for the deceptions because he uses the things we are looking for. Attention, love, success, fame, glory; essentially the things that he himself desired and that led to his downfall.

We've got to realize that the church is where God wants us. He designed it as a body of like-minded people who could be each others safety nets. It's not a club, or just somewhere to go when we have nothing better to do. The things we do, the groups we form, the circles we run in are there for us to draw strength from and fall back on. And in those things we are bound together by Christ's blood. That's a bond that worldly people are clueless about because light and darkness can't co-exist. It's got to be one or the other.

It breaks my heart to see people torn apart by the struggle of living in two worlds. It is evident in their actions and their attitudes. Where the two worlds collide, there is a crossroads, a decision to be made. Too often, the wrong road is chosen. We can't stand in the world on our own, the Bible is also clear about that. So we must choose the one life that keeps us close to God, the life with His family.

Pray for each other. Pray for our own who are struggling with the deceptions of the world and its strongholds. In our unity and fellowship, we are a church. And the gates of Hell will not prevail.

And I ask that you pray for me, too.

Something a little different

For your viewing pleasure, I'm going to start posting some of my favorite pictures on here, randomly, of course. They will most likely have nothing to do with the content of each post so we'll just call them decoration (with captions). They will, however, surely bring a smile (or a frown) because they are all photos I've taken at SCBC events. Therefore, they will include many of you fine readers. I hope you enjoy. Actually, I'll enjoy so I don't care whether you do or not.

Sportin' the Granny look pretty good!

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"What to me is the multitude of your sacrifices? says the Lord;
I have had enough of burnt offerings of rams and well-fed beasts;
I do not delight in the blood of bulls, or of lambs or of goats.

When you come to appear before Me, who has required of you this trampling of my courts?
Bring no more vain offerings;
incense is an abomination to me.
New moon and Sabbath and the calling of convocations-
I cannot endure iniquity and solemn assembly.
Your new moons and your apppointed feasts
My soul hates;
They have become a burden to Me;
I am weary of bearing them.
When you spread out your hands,
I will hide my eyes from you;
even though you make many prayers,
I will not listen;
your hands are full of blood.
Wash yourselves; make yourselves clean;
remove the evil of your deeds from before My eyes;
cease to do evil,
learn to do good"

Isaiah 1:11-17

What we do is not as important as why we do it. In short, God says, "Be real."

Every way of a man is right in his own eyes,
but the Lord weighs the heart. --Proverbs 21:2

A "speck" of awareness

I hate having something on my mind that I don't want there. Isn't there enough going on, really important things, without adding more trash to the pile?

Judge not, that you be not judged. For with the judgment you pronounce you will be judged, and with the measure you use it will be measured to you. Why do you see the speck that is in your brother's eye, but do not notice the log that is in your own eye? Or how can you say to your brother, "Let me take the speck out of your eye," when there is the log in your own eye? You hypocrite, first take the log out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to take the speck out of your brother's eye. --Matthew 7:1-5

And here's something that came to me while Benji was singing "Let God Arise."

What makes people unaware of themselves? Are we really that blind? Can we not see past ourselves enough to recognize the hurt we cause by being oblivious to reality? By being oblivious to truth? By being oblivious to You?

Let God arise and show us how far we are from where we think we are.

I can't tell someone they're wrong if I'm doing the same thing. "Do this!" or "Don't do that!" only works if I'm leading the way. The Bible gives us direction on confronting those we love who are living in a way that is harmful to themselves. And that direction always begins with checking ourselves first. I can't tell you how God wants you to live if I'm living in rebellion. I have to get myself right, then I can help you to get right.

'Cause real friends are willing to intrude...

It always comes back to love.

Happy Easter! Love, Herschel (or, if you prefer, Pigwidgeon)

Where's the Peeps, peeps?

I am ill. No, not sick. Ill as in "ill as a hornet." MAD!!!

I have been to Wal-mart about 1,738 times in the past few weeks looking for Peeps. You know what I mean. Peeps, the best ever marshmallow and pure sugar jolt you could ever hope for. They are only around during Easter, all except for this Easter, apparently. All I've found on the shelves are empty boxes where the Peeps are supposed to be. Dozens and dozens of empty boxes.

I've compensated for the lack of Peeps by eating double my normal annual intake of Cadbury eggs. But that has ran its course (literally). I'm over the eggs; I need some Peeps!

Life. Why does it have to be so hard?

There's no day quite like Easter Sunday

Easter Sunday is my favorite day of the year. It always has been. No one will see this until probably Monday but that's okay. I'm going to tell you about it anyway.

First of all, it's spring. I know spring began a few weeks ago but to me it isn't spring until it's Easter. Even those years when it's 35 degrees and snowing, Easter still feels like spring. And spring means summer is coming and that makes me HAPPY!

Second, there's all the little kids and their new Easter outfits. Big kids, too, like me, who wear something new and bright (if you're lucky you get to go shopping with Sarah) and that just makes people smile. I like to see smiles.

Then there's my vision of future Easters. I look forward to the day when I walk into church with my Mrs. and my little one(s) in their new Easter outfits. You'll recognize my kid; the one with the big ears and unibrow.

But, of course, it's about Jesus. It's about what He did and why. Easter celebrates the day when Jesus got up, walked out of His tomb for me. He walked away from death because He wanted me to spend eternity with Him.

God is a God of resurrection. He resurrected His Son because of love and there's nothing or no one beyond that power of resurrection. I was resurrected on the day I got saved and, honestly, He has resurrected me from other things since then. He saved me from death once, but He has saved me from the world and myself many times.

Happy Easter.

The mouths of babes...

I worked all day today at Sequoyah Hills Presbyterian Church. It's a beautiful, sprawling campus and school and, because of the pretty weather, the daycare kids spent most of the day outside on the playground... the playground right where I was working.

I have never laughed as much as I did today. There were probably around sixty kids from 3 to 5 years old playing out there today. Of course, they're caged in like sheep (actually S.H.E.E.P. which is the name of their program and, no, I never asked what it stands for).

So I'm standing outside the fence, actually leaning on it, while my partner is aloft working. I look down to see about ten of the little loves glaring up at me, smiling and waving. I kneel down and say "Hi!" and one of the soccer-mom leader ladies tells me to just let her know if they are disturbing me and she'll corral them (I think she was checking me out in a "Desperate Housewives" sort of way. If you know me, you know that's a hilarious joke). The conversation then got interesting, and hard to interpret.

Soccer-mom leader lady - "My little friend, Bo, here wants to know what you call that truck."

Me - "We call it a bucket truck."

S-m.l.l. - "He thought it was a boom truck."

Me - "Well, some people do call it that."

S-m.l.l. - "See there, Bo? We were both right."

Bo - "Hi."

Me - "Hi, Bo. I'm Chuck, but you don't have to try to say that." (Not good for 4 year olds to attempt)

Bo - "Okay, Thuck." (Whew!)

Me - "You want to help me work today? It'll be fun."

Bo - "You mean work like picking up my toys? Nah, I'll just play."

Me - (laughing hysterically) "Well, okay. Do you like school? Do you learn a lot?"

Bo - "Yeah. What's that thing?"

Me - "It's called a chain-hoist. We use it to tension things, I mean, make things real tight."

Bo - "How old are you?" (little brat) (S-m.l.l. roars with laughter)

Me - "A lot older than you, buddy. Do you learn alot about Jesus in school?"

Bo - "Yeah. I wanna be that."

Me - "Jesus? Or a chain-hoist?"

Bo - (condescendingly) "No! When I grow up I wanna be that. What you are."

After thirty-seven long years, I have finally attained Hero status to someone. It's touching, really.

Me - "Well that means you'll have to work."

Bo - "Never mind." (and walks away)

"Hey, mister!"

Me - "Hi there."

"I'm Emma. Want to play with my doll?"

Me - "Thanks, Emma, but I better not. I might get her dirty. Are you having fun today?"

Emma - "Can I have a dollar?"

You've just read the first ten minutes of a day that went on for about five hours. There is no possible way to frown after a day like that.

And I get to go back tomorrow. Jelliss?

It's Friday, y'all!!!

Testimony Time with Uncle Chucky

I apologize for the poor quality pictures but it's the best I could do with a cell phone and a shaky hand. I wanted to share something with you tonight that makes my heart leap with joy. It's something that God showed me tonight.

I attended a Chris Tomlin concert tonight (Captain Obvious quote of the day). I could go on and on with things like, "Dude! It was AWESOME! He's like the greatest singer ever! It was the best concert I've ever been to!" But I'm not going to do that because that's not how I feel. Yes, it was a fantastic concert and he is definitely gifted. It was probably one of the most worshipful times I've ever experienced. But the story is in what that worship yielded.

About a year and a half ago, I went to see Tomlin on the "Indescribable" tour here in KnoxVegas. I sat through the whole thing, never standing, never singing along, and waiting for the end. I thought it was stupid and the sermon by Louie Giglio was a bunch of ridiculously overblown statements that were just meant to argue with the scientists.

Around the same time, I also attended two TobyMac shows, and also with the same attitude if not worse. I griped and complained for weeks leading up to the concerts and sat sourpussed through the whole thing, ranting and raving about the no-talent idiot turning back flips off of the drum riser.

Then, almost exactly one year ago, we had a "concert in Hawaii night" in youth. Benji showed Audio Adrenaline's farewell concert and we all dressed up in Hawaiian clothes and wore leis. And again, I stood at the back with some of the kids' dads making fun of the guy on screen who couldn't sing anymore and doubted out loud if he ever could.

Yeah, that was me. Chuck, the wonderfully worshipful youth leader guy with the great, big, open heart and love, love, love for everybody. Baloney.

Tonight, God spoke two words to me: Full Circle.

I never sat down. I sang every word of every song. I cried like a little girl who lost her dolly. I screamed my lungs out singing songs that are about ten keys too high for me. I prayed. I jumped up and down. I lifted my hands. And I loved it.

My CD player holds six discs. The artists currently in there are TobyMac, Audio Adrenaline, Chris Tomlin, Third Day, and Jeremy Camp. When I'm in a really good mood, I rock it out to Boomin' and Ordinary Love. Friday afternoons leaving work, I listen to Free Ride. Jesus Messiah never fails to touch me. And I consider Lay Down My Pride to be my own personal theme song. That, dear friends, is what we call a changed heart. Only God can do that.

I'm sure you've figured out that this post is not at all about music. It's about the change that can take place with just one brief moment with God. One touch from Him and pride dissolves, bitterness washes away, and a cold, self-centered heart fills with love for the things it hated. It was pride and stubbornness that caused me to act the way I did in the past. I didn't have any real problems with those things, I was just too focused on myself to even want to join in and share everyone's fun.

There is true freedom in surrender. I never fully realized until tonight just how life-changing those first days of confession and brokenness were. God has brought me full circle. I think now I'm wiser and closer to God than before I turned away from Him. Not because I like different music. But because the reasons I disliked it are long gone.

What I do while you people sleep

It's 3:08 A.M. I was awakened an hour and a half ago by I don't know what. But here I am with nothing left to do but change my template. I hope the colors match.

When these times of non-sleep come, I usually find my pulse rapid and some sort of burden on my heart. Such is the case tonight. I've been in prayer for the last hour and now I'm just waiting to get tired again, which will probably happen about 5:45 when my alarm sounds. Oh well, whadda ya do?

"You awake?"

Snore.

"Wakey, wakey."

"Huh?"

"Let's chat."

Yaaawwwnn. "Why can't we chat during normal business hours?"

"Because you're usually too distracted, that's why."

"Rott, rott. Okay. 'Sup?"

"Do you need to ask?"

"No, not really. Just thought maybe something new was going on."

"Nope."

"Well, alrighty then. Guess I'll just hang here for a while."

"Good idea."

"You know I don't have anything different to say, just the same things you always hear."

"I know."

"You're cool with that?"

"Way cool."

"Okie dokie."

"Good talk, Russ."

"Thanks, God."

Or something like that.

And you are ...? Oh right! Jesus. Got it.

Something from the sermon this morning that just really jumped up and bit me in the derriere.

...and saying, "You who would destroy the temple and rebuild it in three days, save yourself! If you are the Son of God, come down from the cross." So also the chief priests, with the scribes and elders, mocked Him, saying, "He saved others; He cannot save Himself. He is the King of Israel; let Him come down now from the cross, and we will believe in Him. He trusts in God; let God deliver Him now, if He desires Him. For he said, 'I am the Son of God.' " --Matthew 27:40-43

Jesus being mocked by the most prominent and elite members of Jerusalem's society and religious establishment was a big deal back then. They laughed at Him for His claims because He didn't fit in with their ideas.

Dr. Golden said this of this passage: "Jesus, why don't You become what we think You should be and fit into our definition of what the Son of God is?"

Jesus could have saved Himself. But then He couldn't have saved us. The temple leaders couldn't understand sacrifice even though they had undoubtedly performed many sacrifices themselves. It was self-sacrifice that escaped them.

They imagined a warrior Messiah, a battle-ready king, a powerful military commander with armies at his disposal. One day they will see that wish fulfilled, but this wasn't the time. Jesus came to die in shame. He will return to triumph in glory.

How often do we re-define the Son of God? How many times do we ask Him to become something we want instead of what we need? Do we honestly see Him for who truly is, or do we purposely skew our vision of Him so that He will fit into our plans and desires? Do you really worship God or is He your "genie-in-a-bottle" (sing-along now)?

We want our lives to be what we think they should be. We make our plans and ask God to join in and bless them. That's not a surrendered life. That's not dying to self. And then we get all torqued out when our plans don't work out and ask God why He didn't comply. How often do you think God's response is, "I didn't tell you to do that in the first place! You wanted it, not Me!"

He promises to bless us abundantly. He promises to take care of us and make our joy complete. Why don't we just let Him?

Happy Monday! (if there is such a thing)

Why pray?

Consider the ravens: they neither sow nor reap, they have neither storehouse nor barn, and yet God feeds them. Of how much more value are you than the birds! And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life? If then you are not able to do as small a thing as that, why are you anxious about the rest? Consider the lilies, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. But if God so clothes the grass, which is alive in the field today, and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, how much more will He clothe you, O you of little faith! --Luke 12:24-28

A raven is an ugly bird. Just a bird. It has no soul, no desire to be near its creator, no seat of emotions, no capacity to feel heartache or despair. It's just a bird that lives to eat and reproduce. But God loves that ugly bird enough to provide it with food and water. God loves it enough to ensure its survival.

A lily is a beautiful flower, with what I'm sure are vibrant and vivid colors (I'll take your word for it). It's just a flower, though, that sprouts, grows, gets pollenated, and dies. But God has given that flower beauty and immortality through the symbolism of His Word. "The Lily of the Valley," remember that?

We pray because God loves us. He loves us above any other creation of His. He loves us enough to promise to meet any and every need we might have.

There's been a ginormous (hate that made-up word) amount of prayer going up today. It's been a day of caring, loving, encouraging, and supporting. I felt depended on today and that makes me giddy like a schoolgirl. I felt God prompting us to reach out to those we love the most and help heal them up a little. Man, I love God! He's great.

Ravens and lilies are God's creations, but we are His most precious. The above Scripture refers to God's provision; food and clothing. But He provides us with so much more than just those things. He provides us with strength, encouragement, comfort, faith, healing, peace. And He gives us soft places to land when we fall, and shoulders to rest on when we are weak.

But most importantly, He gives Himself. And the promise that He is enough to cover any circumstance.

Have you not known? Have you not heard?
The LORD is the everlasting God,
The creator of the ends of the earth.
He does not faint or grow weary;
His understanding is unsearchable.
He gives power to the faint,
and to him who has no might He increases strength.

Keep praying for the Mays family.

I don't have time for God

I've been thinking alot about my own prayer life (which is a funny term because it sounds like a compartment of my life when it should be the biggest part of my life). Anyway, I've been looking into what keeps me from praying.

It seems like most days I run around crazy-headed, trying to accomplish all of the tasks I had planned, mix in a little R & R, get to bed at a decent hour, and fall asleep feeling proud of myself. But most days I lay in bed trying to fall asleep with a nagging feeling that I missed out on some QT with God.

I'm not talking about "praying without ceasing." I don't mean remaining in a prayerful state of mind while I go about performing my job, or listening to a Tomlin CD while driving, or reading a Max Lucado book, or writing a compelling, thought-provoking, life-changing post for you folks to read.

What I'm talking about here is real time with God. The kind of time He wants, when we set aside everything in our overly-complicated lives and devote ourselves completely to Him, on our knees, with His Word open and our hearts receptive. A daily Sabbath, if you will.

So what stands in the way? Life. Not real life, of course, but the life we have made for ourselves. Careers, people, relationships, sports, television shows that we just cannot miss, social lives that will utterly fall apart if we cut them short a half an hour, you name it. They are all priorities above God-time.

We tell ourselves that these things are godly parts of our lives that help us to be well-rounded Christians and that God wants us to be active and visible so that others can see Him in us. We're very proud of ourselves, aren't we?

Remember Daniel? Hangin' out-in-the-lions'-crib Daniel? Prayed-three-times-a-day-at-the-risk-of-death Daniel? What about David? Psalm-writing, shepherd boy-turned-king of Israel David? He stayed in constant communion with God and I still haven't heard of one single sheep that turned up missing.

And what about the God/Man Himself? If you're having trouble keeping up, I'm talking about Jesus. The Bible says that He often went off to pray alone and that He often continued in prayer all night.

The very nature of God and the reason He created us is so that we could have a relationship with Him. He would never want us to over-busy ourselves and cut Him out. The whole purpose of Jesus' death was to provide a way for us to fellowship with Him directly. That's why the veil was "rent in twain" (I've always wanted to use that).

The old saying goes, "If you're too busy for God, you're too busy." The times in my life when I've been alone with God for awhile have been the most life-changing times of my, well... life. We all need to slow down and trim the fat. We shouldn't struggle to make time for God. The difficulty should be in making time for anything else.

Too sermon-ish? Then there's only one thing left to do.

Would the ushers please come forward...?

Just thinking out loud here

I have a whole bunch of stuff on my mind. So I'll cover it in multiple posts. It's kind of like cyber-journaling.

This is my first post in a week, a long time for me. Sarah made me feel guilty for not writing as much because I like to read what you all have to say. It keeps me in touch with you guys throughout the week. I imagine it would be much more important if I were away at college. So I've decided to give you all the privilege of getting to know me better. Yeah, I know. It is a blessing.

I Googled "King of kings" for some reason. The responses were about an epic movie from the 1960's (which I've seen and liked), a Motorhead album (can't be good), and a professional wrestler named Triple H, or HHH. We are definitely living in a media-controlled world. Those "days of Noah" that Jesus talked about can't be far away. But I don't mean to discourage. I look forward to the day when Jesus returns and lays the smackdown on a wrestler who refers to himself as the king of kings.

Thanks to Virginia, I laugh everytime I think of the word capitulate. It reminds me of that scene in "Tommy Boy" where Farley and Spade are stoned in the car and keep repeating, "...speed limit, limit, limit," because it sounds funny to them. Thanks, V-Baby. Sweat rings and all.

Easter is coming and it's my favorite day of the year. Because of what we celebrate but also because of all the new clothes and dressed-up kids in little dresses and suits and ties. All of the colors are so bright and pretty (so they tell me).

I'm really excited about the upcoming JGen summer. The activities we came up with the other night are sure to be fun and purposeful. Definitely a summer we'll never forget.

Prayer is the topic of the day and I say, "Hallelujah." I believe it is the key to everything we want to see God do in our lives and around us. More importantly, what He wants to do, whether we are aware of it or not. I told my guys Sunday night that if we get our prayer lives right, and I mean really right, and take on an attitude of true humility and willingness, then He will change things in a way we could never imagine. Everything will change.

Speaking of prayer, and I apologize if I'm out of line, I am really burdened for three of our own. As you may know, Heather, Rachel, and Sarah's mom is going through a very difficult time. My heart goes out to Autumn, who has been very good to me. What better way for us to start sharpening our prayer skills than to lift up this family that is so very close to all of us. Mays girls, I pray for you three intently every day. I'm sure the stress and worry of this time can be overwhelming, especially with all of life's other cares. Praise to God that He is able to handle all our trials, physical and emotional. I love you gals very much and I think I speak for the whole crew when I say we've got your back.

Enough for today? I think so, too.

Four days to go.

Zaphenath-paneah

First, a quick story from my day. I have been burdened today, alot. It's the kind of burden that thrusts you at the mercy of God because there is no relief apart from Him. But that's not the story.

Early this morning, like 8:00 early, I get a text message from Virginia about something totally unrelated. Then she asks if everything is okay, at which point I hide my face from nosy onlookers and bawl like a teething baby. Thanks for the care, concern, encouragement, and prayers, V-Baby.

Then, at quitting time, Sarah texts me about something else unrelated, then asks about my day and also promises to be thinking about me. Thanks, smays, for encouragement number two. I'm naming my daughter Earnestine Carver, by the way.

So I leave work and go to the church in the hopes of just finding a pick-me-up and, lo and behold, I find Benji, Virginia and Rachel. If that's not a pick-me-up I don't know what is. They're discussing a situation that is eerily similar to my issue and I found comfort in hearing how Rachel is seeking God's wisdom about it. I think few of us will ever be the kind of friend that Rachie is.

So, thank you, Mays girls and Virginia. You're good medicine.

Now then. It's favorite Bible character time. Mine is Joseph (I'm thinking J4Gen). I read his story all the time and never get tired of it. He suffered much at the hands of others but always remained faithful to God. He was thrown into a pit, undeservedly, then sold into slavery, then thrown into another pit, undeservedly again (because of a woman, go figure), then forgotten about for two more years after the cupbearer promised to remember him. And all before he was thirty.

He was made overseer of his master's house, because God was with him.

He was put in charge of the prisoners, in the same prison in which he was a captive, because God was with him.

He was blessed with dream interpretation, which he never took credit for but always proclaimed, "It is not in me; God will give Pharaoh a favorable answer." (Genesis 41:16)

He was raised up from slavery to the second most powerful position in the world, because God was with him.

And he rescued his family, the ones that wanted him dead. And he forgave them before they asked. Don't see that too often, do we?

Joe was the man. He suffered and praised God. He succeeded and praised God. He was always faithful, no matter the circumstances or how it might benefit him. He stayed true to God whether it meant life or death, with no regard for what others thought. And God blessed him for it.

Now, I have an affinity for Egyptology. It has always fascinated me, probably because of the biblical relationship. But if I lived in the time of the Old Testament, I would not want to be an Egyptian. Bad juju. But Joseph had it good as an Egyptian, yes, because God was with him.

I really love the parallels between Joseph and Jesus. The rejection, the suffering, the faithfulness, the exaltation, and the salvation. Because of Joseph, the Hebrew race, not to mention the Egyptian empire, was saved. Because of Jesus, the human race was saved.

And this is way cool. Joseph, upon being appointed as governor, was given an Egyptian name by Pharaoh... Zaphenath-paneah. It loosely translates as "Savior".

Okay, I'll stop. This post has been long enough and you people have work to do. But I want to know about your favorite Bible people and why they are special to you. So, have at it. Blow up my inbox.

Why I am glad I'm not a Bible translator

Something caught my eye today in Titus. Paul wrote in chapter 3, verse 4:

"But when the goodness and loving kindness of God our Savior appeared,"

Growing up under straight-up King James, I remember hearing and reading alot about lovingkindness, as in Psalm 36:7:

"How excellent is thy lovingkindness, O God!"

What I noticed today is that in Titus, two words are used as opposed to one word in the psalm. I know this isn't a big deal but I thought it was interesting.

So I did some research. The Hebrew word for "lovingkindness" means unfailing and loyal love, usually based on a prior relationship. It's the awesome and incomprehensible love that God shows to us every minute of every day. It's how He shows us how important we are to Him and it's what causes Him to bless us, grow us, discipline us, and form us into His likeness.

But "loving kindness" is talking about His kindness. The word "loving" is used to describe the kindness He showed to us when He appeared as our Savior to redeem us to Him. It was a single act of kindness, or mercy, that saved us. The loving kindness of God is Jesus Christ.

I guess all I'm saying is that the loving kindness of God allows us to receive and enjoy His lovingkindness.

Have a great Monday.

Identity theft

Benji talked tonight about your identity. What is your identity? With what do you identify? Of course, the churchy answer is God through Christ. But, as he talked to the kids, I thought about those times in my life when I lost my identity. I don't mean that I got all pouty and depressed, just very reflective and grateful to God for now having re-discovered my true identity.

It's shameful that there have been several times in my life when I just quit. I was in a good place spiritually, growing and learning, and for some reason, probably pride, I turned the other direction. So I'm going to give some unsolicited advice to you tonight. I don't mean to sound preachy or condescending, this is just the experience of a weathered, old veteran of the world speaking. I love you folks dearly and if my mistakes can keep any of you from suffering, then I will die with a smile.

When we are comfortable, we are vulnerable. My story is usually that I am devoted, committed, and involved and something turns my affections away from God. It's usually something that I view as a blessing or even a reward. But pretty soon my mind is not as concentrated on the godly things in my life. I begin to see myself as "wiser" or "more enlightened". My commitment to my obligations starts to fade, I'll start weaseling out of my duties, losing interest in the things that I had previously loved. And this is all while wearing the mask and acting like I'm fine. From there, it's a snowball. Excuses come more easily when we are listening to self.

I lose my identity. More precisely, I form a new one. One that suits my desires, my environment, my idea of what I think I should be. I totally and completely turn my back on God. I want to be cooler, I want to be looked upon with more respect from the wrong kind of people, I want to fit in with a crowd, I want to see what life has to offer. I want to walk a different path, one I make on my own. I've even told myself that "I'm just not as comfortable around those simple, churchy people anymore. I've outgrown them." And that's not been that long ago.

Here is truth. I stand firm and confident in telling you that that road does not lead where you think it does. It leads to heartache, sin, and an even longer road back to the ones you have hurt.

So here's the advice part: Check yourself. If you notice your attitude towards God and godly people changing, turn around. If it becomes easier and easier to set aside your duties for something more appealing, then stop! Trust me, these fires start small but they spread quickly and consume everything. Before you know it, you're a long way from home.

Sorry for the "downer post of the day." The good news is that with God, identities are never lost, just misplaced. He is always ready to receive us back, teach us our lessons, heal us up, and restore us. He's good like that, ya know. And those true friends that we trample over in the process? They're there, too. Open-armed and loving, forgiving and understanding, ready to love again.

I may not be super-confident in many things, but this is one of them. It's easy to slip away. That's why the Bible warns us to be vigilant.

See you Friday.

Some inspiration

So we fasted and implored our God for this, and He listened to our entreaty. --Ezra 8:23

Then Esther told them to reply to Mordecai, "Go, gather all the Jews to be found in Susa, and hold a fast on my behalf, and do not eat or drink for three days, night or day. I and my young women will also fast as you do. Then I will go to the king, though it is against the law, and if I perish, I perish." --Esther 4:15, 16

Then Daniel went to his house and made the matter known to Hananiah, Mishael, and Azariah, his companions and told them to seek mercy from the God of heaven concerning this mystery, so that Daniel and his companions might not be destroyed with the rest of the wise men of Babylon. --Daniel 2:17, 18


Maybe I'm the only one, but there are issues on my heart that I undoubtedly know are outside my own efforts. As today is a day of prayer and fasting, not only for Benji but also for things not to be mentioned here, let's make sure that we seek God's wisdom with faith and humility.

Whether the matter is made known to all of us, as with Esther, or to a few companions, as with Daniel, the sovereign God who has all power to hear and answer our prayers remains faithful to us.

I'm praying for all of you today.

Where to start

I'm not quite sure how to go about saying a proper thank you to those responsible for the surprise (boy, was it ever) birthday party given for me tonight. But I will try.

First, a few revisions from my previous post.

Heather and Juli (Nikki and Juri): Obviously, I jumped to conclusions about the Pumpkin Spice cake and Key Lime pie. I was sort of joking with you when I begged for them. By sort of I mean that I really, really, really wanted some but felt like I was asking too much from you two. However, you came through in a big way. It's not just idle compliments when I say they are the best and my favorite desserts ever. For a busy mom and a very sick gal, you really went to way too much effort for me. Thanks much and I love you both. I humbly and publicly eat crow.

Jessie: Thanks for the chocolate chip cookies, another top favorite. My name will definitely be in your shoebox next time.

Cody: I have to say that I'm touched by the song you wrote and performed for me. Rhyming my name is not only dangerous and potentially embarrassing, but difficult as well. Thanks, bro. I'll include the lyrics at the end of this post for everyone's entertainment.

Ryan, Baby Iyak, Sarah, Spenser, Rachel, Hayley, Benji, Bennett, Don, Dave: Thanks for being there to celebrate with me. If I've left out any contributions you made it's only because I'm not aware of them. You are great friends and make the first four days of the week worth the struggle just to get to Friday nights. Love you, guys.

And Virginia: From what I have been told, this was your doing, so watch your back! I can't tell you how much I appreciate all the effort put into this. You really out-did yourself. I'm not used to being the center of attention but I must say I felt very special tonight. I am completely unworthy. I'll do some investigating and find out the whole story behind it all. Thanks for who you are and for becoming a very good friend in a very short time. You, out of all of us, have really got this JGen-family-love thing figured out. I love you bunches. And thanks for the D-lish brownies.

According to Sarah, my next birthday will also be spent with my new wife, or at least wife-to-be. I hope she doesn't mind spending Fridays with a dozen other people.

Chuck's Song

by Cody Mikles

(blues rhythm)

Now I know a man, his name is Chuck

He lives in a house, and drives a truck

He works all day, on the telephone lines

So I can tell, my girlfriend goodnight

Today is his birthday, he's a hundred years old

But that's alright, 'cause he's my hero

It's hard to believe, but when he was young

He had thick-rimmed glasses, and a bushy mustache

Oh, he has sold boots, in a western store

While being a soundman, for a country band

We don't need, McDreamy or McSteamy

'Cause we got Dreamy-Chuck-Steamy

Happy birthday Chuck, from all of us youth

We hope you have many, many more good times

You can't hide real talent.

Nothing too heavy today

I'm taking a break from deep thoughts today because, well, just because I can. But here are a few things I want you all to know.

Most importantly, thank you all for the calls, cards, text messages, comments, and e-mails regarding what I will call "Black Thursday." You know what I mean. Death's sickle swings a little closer today. I'm now a virile and rambunctious thirty-seven years old. But in my mind, and many of you can confirm this, I will always be twenty-four.

Seriously though, I have never felt so loved in my life. Simple birthday wishes may seem like small things to you but I have never felt so blessed. I couldn't imagine a day that would be any better than getting to hear from each of you. So thanks for the love. All that is missing is Pumpkin Spice cake and Key Lime pie (Juri and Nikki, there's always next year. Or any random day hereafter). :)

Next, I must say that Jason "Cus D'Amato" Reagan is a brutal, wicked taskmaster. I just returned from working out with Jason, Benji, and Ryan and I can barely lift my hands to this keyboard. We did a boxing workout and, like I told J-Ray, "if I ever get strong, fast and accurate, I'll be deadly."

Do you have any idea how awesome Tupperware is? I doubt you do. I just received a box full of it that I ordered from Juli and I am having a blast with it. I have no logical explanation for this condition but I am loving it!

A point of interest that might cause premature heart failure to some of you (someone make sure there's a defibrillator handy). I now own a tobyMac CD, and I bought it of my own freewill. In the past, when I was being a putz, I ran him down pretty hard just to get on people's nerves. Truth is, I dig it. I think that flushing noise you hear is the last vestige of my stubborn pride. The transformation is complete.

And finally (I knew I couldn't avoid prayer), Benji and I were talking today about our up-coming focus on prayer and we hit on the term "breaching containment." We both gave each other that look we get when something clicks. He had said that he's almost scared, in a good way, about what this focus will bring. When we get our praying right, and by right I mean steady, focused, obedient, and humble, the death of our selfishness and control will allow the Holy Spirit to burst out, assume command, and God is free to do all the amazing work He wants to do. But it's going to take surrender. The final surrender of the things we are clinging to; our plans and dreams, our wishes, and our presumptions of what we think should be His will. That's what real prayer will do. It will give Him the line of communication He desires between ourselves and Him.

Being real must begin with God. When we get real with Him, it changes everything.

Happy weekend, y'all.

Here a prayer, there a prayer, everywhere a prayer prayer.

I'm literally surrounded by the topic of prayer. That's God's doing, so, pay attention.

Sorry. More from Charles Spurgeon. I think the reason I am drawn to preachers like him and D.L. Moody is because they were what I strive to be. They were truly Spirit-filled men of God who let themselves be used for great things. And they did it un-apologetically. So humor me. You might get something out of it.

Tonight I'll simply quote Spurgeon and let you ponder it and draw your own conclusions. This portion of this sermon is titled, "The condition of a believer who is being prepared for greater honor and wider service." I think this should speak to all of us JGenners. Buckle up!

Is it not a curious thing that, whenever God means to make a man great, He always breaks him in pieces first? There was a man whom the Lord meant to make into a prince. How did He do it? Why, He met him one night, and wrestled with him! You always hear about Jacob's wrestling. Well, I dare say he did; but it was not Jacob who was the principal wrestler: "There wrestled a man with him until the breaking of the day." God touched the hollow of Jacob's thigh, and put it out of joint, before He called him "Israel"; that is, "a prince of God." The wrestling was to take all his strength out of him; and when his strength was gone, then God called him a prince. Now, David was to be king over all Israel. What was the way to Jerusalem for David? What was the way to the throne? Well, it was around by the cave of Adullam. He must go there, and be an outlaw, and an outcast, for that was the way by which he would be made king.

Have none of you ever noticed, in your own lives, that whenever God is going to give you an enlargement, and bring you out to a larger sphere of service, or a higher platform of spiritual life, you always get thrown down? That is His usual way of working; He makes you hungry before He feeds you; He strips you before He robes you; He makes nothing of you before He makes something of you. This was the way with David. He is to be king in Jerusalem; but he must go to the throne by the way of the cave. Now, are any of you going to heaven, or going to a more heavenly state of sanctification, or going to a greater sphere of usefulness? Do not wonder if you go by the way of the cave. Why is that?

It is, first, because, if God would make you greatly useful, he must teach you how to pray. The man who is a great preacher, and yet cannot pray, will come to a bad end. A woman who cannot pray, and yet is noted for the conducting of Bible classes, has already come to a bad end. If you can be great without prayer, your greatness will be your ruin. If God means to bless you greatly, He will make you pray greatly, as He does David, who says in this part of his preparation for coming to his throne, "I cried unto the Lord with my voice; with my voice unto the Lord did I make my supplication."

God wants to use you for greater things. I sincerely want you all to be closer to God and more useful to Him, even if that means a little breaking. So don't forget to pray today.

Happy March 12th. (I'm shameless)

"Call unto me..."

This is kinda ripped off from Charles Spurgeon but, as prayer, real prayer, is the topic on the horizon, it is not only fitting but powerful as well.

I was reading Spurgeon earlier tonight, one of his sermons on prayer (he wrote over 3000 of them). The sermon is titled "The Golden Key of Prayer." The Scripture reference is Jeremiah 33:3:

Call unto Me, and I will answer thee, and shew thee great and mighty things, which thou knowest not. (KJV, by the way)

Jeremiah wrote this from a "cold, damp prison floor." But in this verse is a command, "call unto Me," and a promise, "I will answer thee." Jeremiah found out, as many of us have and we all eventually will, that, "God's people have always in their worst condition found out the best of their God. He is good at all times; but He seems to be at His best when they are at their worst."

Spurgeon goes on to write about what things we take to God and how Satan will try to convince us that our issues are trivial and of no importance. He writes:

"(says the devil), If you were in any other position you might rest upon the mighty arm of God; but here your prayer will not avail you. Either it is too trivial a matter, or it is too connected with temporals, or else it is a matter in which you have sinned too much, or else it is too high, too hard, too complicated a piece of business, you have no right to take that before God! So suggests the foul fiend of hell."

I confess that I fall for this all the time. I sometimes see my concerns in light of eternity and think, "That really doesn't matter much. God has bigger things going on." But God loves me and when I take my cares to Him and "cast them upon Him," He hears and will answer.

"Call unto Me - call unto Me. Are you sick? Would you be healed? Cry unto Me, for I am a Great Physician. Does providence trouble you? Are you fearful that you shall not provide things honest in the sight of man? Call unto Me! Are your griefs little yet painful, like small points and pricks of thorns? Call unto Me! Is your burden heavy as though it would make your back break beneath its load? Call unto Me!"

Cast thy burden upon the Lord, and He shall sustain thee; He shall never suffer the righteous to be moved.

It saddens me that we have simplified prayer to a mere wish-list, but complicated it to a rigid, outlined, ritualistic chant . We either doubt our life-altering issues are important enough for His time, or we think He should stop the progress of history to attend solely to our concerns. Pride and/or selfishness, it always comes down to that.

What if we just stopped praying because we want to be comfortable and started praying because He wants us to? What if we made it about Him once and for all? What if our time spent alone with God became more important than our time spent with the things that make us feel okay about ourselves?

"Hours for the world, and moments for Christ! We give our strength and freshness to the ways of mammon, and our fatigue and languor to the ways of God."

The more I think about our "new, fresh way" of doing things, it appears that we haven't found a "new, fresh way." We've re-discovered the way that works because it has always worked. Spurgeon died 120 years ago. And, believe it or not, we've begun to think just like he did. Only the language is different.

Happy hump-day.

Some days are diamonds...

Believe it or not, there are days when I love my job. This is where I worked all day today. It's in a little valley in Union County. Warm weather, blue skies, and no one to bother me. That, my friends, is what I like to call a good day.

I had a Scripture verse stuck in my head all day that sums up the beauty of nature.

For His invisible attributes, namely, His eternal power and divine nature, have been clearly perceived, ever since the creation of the world, in the things that have been made. So they are without excuse. --Romans 1:20

"The entire natural world bears witness to God through its beauty, complexity, and design."

God's power and majesty are clearly revealed in the world He has made. But mankind rejects Him. No one can say that there is insufficient evidence that He exists. His existence is all around us.

Matthew Henry puts it this way:

"The power and Godhead of God are invisible things, and yet are clearly seen in their products. He works in secret but manifests what He has wrought, and therein makes known His power and Godhead."

There is no excuse, no "show me more, God, maybe then I'll believe." He has shown Himself since the beginning of time. The order of creation itself is proof that He is.

I am. God is.

It's a Creek thang

I promised Shelby and Hayley I would post this picture and they actually agreed to let me. I guess Stock Creek gals turn into truckstop gals every now and then. Yeah. Awkward.

I like to call this look Redneck/Thug.

WWJW pictures are up on my Flickr site. Click on the photo gallery or go to my photostream. I only uploaded about half of them. It takes forever.

I'm very smiley today. Maybe it's the weather. Warm and sunny makes me warm and fuzzy, I guess. But maybe it's something else.

I was thinking today about all the little busy things we have going on in our lives. Mainly the church things. There's a lot going on! JGen, Awkward, UGLY, Frequency, Live-Wire, N.O.W., Romania, lions, tigers, and bears. I can't even name them all. But there's also relationship maintenance, relationship development, accountability, and most importantly, just loving everybody. These things are important to us, they are practically our whole life. How important are they to God?

I think not very important at all. Weren't expecting to hear that, maybe? Don't like the sound of it? Great, big, all-loving God not caring?!?!? C'est impossible!!

But we are very important to Him. More important than anything. Our activities may be just what we do to stay involved with Him, but He loves us enough to involve Himself in our activities and our relationships because those are the things that keep our relationship with Him in focus. And that's what it's all about.

That's what God wants more than anything; to be in a constant state of communication and communion with us. So He intervenes in our daily lives and events, continually moving in us and around us, showing Himself to us and to others through us. It's not the things we do that matter, it's the reason we do them.

So we should occasionally stop and check ourselves and our motives. And we should always be aware that God desires us. He isn't too concerned with completing a checklist or giving out "Best New Idea of the Day" awards.

I guess there's no great point to make here. Just the way my mind was thinking today.